yamanai ame da neeee

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

The mind automatically cleans out what you dont wanna remember and that may be why i haven't been thinking about gwee and her foolish decision.
yes. foolish.
ok at least i think it is.. i dunno.

Anyway,
School's about to end and i'm feeling extremely depressed right now.
I know i didn't like some people but really, which class is perfect?
There were people i didn't like in every stage of my life..
and there were always people i love in every stage of my life.
I miss them all so bad even when school hasn't ended...
it's horrible.
I hate that feeling!
Today our CG rep showed us a ppt he made abt us..
omgg its really sad.
I think i've never missed anyone that i've known for such a short period before in my life!
Remembering those sucky orrientation days with my sucky og, i feel so damn lucky my class is so nice.. hai...
i know they're not really reading this but i really really loved all the times we spent tgt all the really bad things we did (like ponning our lecture :) and making lotsa noise in the library) and the horrible times we managed to tide through (horrible lit lessons with chitra and the worst pe on earth) and the funny things we did (like GETTING 'LOST' in the school just so we can skip lessons hahahaha... laughing at zhonghao when he falls asleep, making corny and ahem sometimes horny jokes. haha.. ) and allllll the NICE things we did tgt! (going to that niceee windy corner to slack and laugh, gg to causeway to eat and rot, nice pe lessons on thurs playing games with the stupid guys and basically having a real good laugh, climbing up teletubby hill to take pics)
AND lastly,
i wanna say that you guys have made what i initally thought would be a horrible time into something really super duperly great.
Thank you.
and i'll never forget all of you.

8:29 PM

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Life has became a nightmare starting from..
yesterday.

Guides is officially over.

Hai.. My aunty's still not talking to me :/
she's still angry that i put innova as my first choice :/
so childish ok just because my cousin is in nanyang! :/
i nvr wanted to go to any school which had any relatives then they'll compare and compare.. like 'oh so and so did that before how come it wasn't so hard last time?'
oh whatever. why can't they just shut up abt it?
argh.
I so wanna swear to them that it will not be a wrong move.
I wish they're reading this however impossible that is.

12:28 PM

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Omg i can't believe it.
My friend and his gf was supposed to come for the funfair.
and guess what.
they
broke up
today.
omg. seriously i was shocked and i was thinking luckily he havent buy the tix from me yet if not how to return lah so weird.
And he cried in school today =O
omggggg. i feel quite sad for him.

9:23 PM

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Nothing much been happening.. schl's boring and i have a mileeee of hmwk to complete and i feel like killing myself.

I got chinese zuo wen to hand in tml and i got a lit essay to do :(((((
omgggg save me.
I dont think i can cope with the full blast next time loh!
Or maybe i'm just not in the mood to start work yet.. i dunno.

Now that i've choosen innova i have to work hard so that no one will judge me according to where i went but what i do.
Not having the boost of reputation is smth i've choosen for myself so i just have to live it up i guess..
arghhh but the thought of doing HOMEWORK is killing me. seriously..
and studying for test and doing all the stupid projects.
I'm finally feeling the end of the so called 'honeymoon period'..
Since i'm staying then i have to clear up all my hmwk. ahhh :(
kill meeee someone please.

9:09 PM

Sunday, February 19, 2006

I love Chicago. the songs are soo nice..!

[MATRON]Ask any of the chickies in my pen
They'll tell you I'm the biggest mother hen
I love 'em all and all of them love me
Because the system works
The system called reciprocity...

Got a little motto
Always sees me through
When you're good to Mama
Mama's good to you.

There's a lot of favorsI'm prepared to do
You do one for Mama
She'll do one for you.

They say that life is tit for tat
And that's the way I liveSo,
I deserve a lot of tat
For what I've got to give

Don't you know that this hand
Washes that one too
When you're good to Mama
Mama's good to you!

If you want my gravy
Pepper my ragout
Spice it up for Mama
She'll get hot for you

When they pass that basket
Folk contribut to
You put in for Mama
She'll put out for you

The folks atop the ladder
Are the ones the world adores
So boost me up my ladder, Kid
And I'll boost you up yours

Let's all stroke together
Like the Princeton crewW
hen you're strokin' Mama
Mama's strokin' you

So what's the one conclusionI can bring this number to?
When you're good to Mama
Mama's good to you!

this song is so nice omg i wanna die.

4:49 PM

Friday.
Went back to st nicks..
I was super early so i sat down and attempted to understand ECONS. without much results, as i expected.
hahaha.. then i did lit.. at least it was ok.
Sat there for like 2 hours and it all felt so familiar.
Like i was studying for the os again.. ah... so nice can.
Oh yah!! i saw mrs goh. :) She's so cute lah.
I was looking at the results boards that had so many 4U ppl when...
'DARling! still admiring the boards? haha... admire admire. you should.'
She's sooo nice.
Later on matong and eunice came.. we walked around and talked crap.
I swear i'll love stnicks forever for whatever and whoever it holds.
Mrs tian came to talk to us lah. and she said 'you all love the school alot ah'
Hahah.. yes we do.
hmm.. yah and then in the end we ended up sitting in the canteen to talk till.. 6++ ?
Really really nice.

Yesterday was thinking day..
Hey hey hey its thinking day!!
Hahahah!! I cant stand that funny song man.
It was boring, as usual.
And there were some very.. eye-opening performance that made me feel sick in the stomach.
ughhhh.
Talked to the seniors. and dear Fengru.
Thanks ah. She said psychology is a crap major to take ok!
She said its dumb! How can she.
Irritating women. hahaha... how can she say that lah!
Ok anw, aft thinking day.. we went back to stnicks.
Oh yah and jiayin and liudi got LOST at kallang!!
So exciting. They went back to the stadium to get their bottles and then the bus left WITHOUT them. Hahaha.. luckily they called in time and we stopped the bus.
Yining and i had to get down and go back to get them.. and they didnt know where they were (neither did we :P)
In the end we found them and brought them back.. hahaha its the funniest thing.
Back at sn, celebs went to snap our pictures. and we did the stupidest and lamest things ok!
Gosh.
Hahaha.. but i think we're very artistic. Haha..
Maybe i can upload some later.
Ok anw, aft that went to fish and co.. ate some really nice things. omg seriously very very nice.
Hmm.. yah the reach home at around 10+ i think.
Oh. I bought the WRONG s.h.e cd again.
How dumb can i get????

2:28 PM

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

v day in school was.. mood-less.
like completely NO v day mood lah.. so horrible.
the class room had no smell of sweets there were no wrappers all over the floor
no continuous crackling sound of sweet wrappers
no one walking the corridors during recess
no hugging no laughing no 'i love you'
no jams crowds of ppl all ard school
aiyah.
practically no vday in innova.

but anw yesterday was fun all the same all thanks to celebs (or whats left of it)
namely, matong and yanni aixin and eunice.
than went to walk through almost every shop in j8
and laughed at EVERYTHING i tell ya.
it's the funniest lamest shit ever.
found some nice things.. a nice perfume thing i wanna buy..
alot of things lah.

7:29 PM

Sunday, February 12, 2006

going going going. gone.
i feel the lost.

hai.. art has got me into the melancholy mood again and i can't say i like it very much.

2:20 AM

Saturday, February 11, 2006

wth wth wth.

Hai.. i can't believe it..
and sadly the only person who shares my puzzlement is WINNIE NG.
Like how on earth did i get it? I dunno.
Anyone i tell is like impassive.. hai..
can't blame them, it's got nothing to do with them right.
maybe cause i didnt look sad.. yah i didnt come to think of it.
But its really a shock i worked so freaking hard for it and this is what i get.
seriously, i should have never taken it.
what the shit i'm angry now. omg.
ALL that time and energy and sweat, tears, trauma.
what has it come to?
I feel i let foo down. I'm so sorry you should never have spent anytime on me.
i would have gotten my 5 anyway.
I'm never gonna touch art ever again. never.

10:41 AM

Friday, February 10, 2006

IM GONNA PEEE MY PANTS.

10:58 AM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

OMG results on friday lahh wth.

Ive been at home for 2 days now with mc from the doc
and i'm like so free my brain keeps.. wandering off to friday ):
HOW.
Someone calm me down i think i'm gonna hyperventilate.
arghhhhh..!
Please please please just let me get enough to go back to innova
PLEASE.

Hai.. anw, can you believe i actually miss school?
I think life at home is too boring and it has caused me to become disillusioned about what i should miss and what i shouldn't.

1:38 PM

Monday, February 06, 2006

I'm sick of being sick :(

Having cough now and my throat is like dying.
Must have been yesterday haha..

Speaking of yesterday,
WE HAD 4 UNITY REUNION!!!!!!!
soooo fun i tell you.
Hai.. so nice.
I was cooking with betty and diana and xiaorong the butter women.
And i made the fire all by myself!!! sort of. haha...
then ppl came. veronica came!! but it's like so short.. hai... nvm i still thought it was nice that she came :)
and she said i became thinner. HAH.
Thanks veron.

Anw, we cooked and talked and listened to everyone's cute stories
and even though i was cooking like the whole time i still had alot of fun listening to pris's stories abt the Big Boobs and Big Balls and all that totally crap things. ahahah...
and i was like laughing to myself while i was cooking cause it was so damn funny! haha..
and then when alot of ppl left we sat down and started to slack like old times :)
Me and xr went to feed the cats..
Oh yah weijin's dog is sooo cute i tell you.
Ralph. hahah i think i've fallen in love with you hahah!
yes yes thanks weijin for providing your house!!! It couldn't have happened without you and your house.
Char's mum send me to yck mrt and i walked home in the rain.
That explains the horrible headache i've been having for the whole day.. hm..

yep.. i think that's it.
It was so great and all so familiar i couldn't believe i had to go back to innova the next day..
I thought i was going back to stnicks can :(

2:53 PM

Saturday, February 04, 2006

I feel so irritated lah
can't remember the last time when i felt like that..

Think it was during prelims..
like the world is going against you, nothing is what you want it to be.
like everyone just thinks you're crap.

Why can't they just leave us our last reunion?
Hate this lahhhh

12:29 AM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

I miss my uniform.

Even though im still wearing it...
hai.
It's just different somehow.

Oh well.. results've been terrorising my mind and every single minute of my day.
I hate this waiting lah!! and i hope its on monday..
like you know, get over and done with.
I shall be looking out for the news on sunday.
omggg.

3:07 PM

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

tired.

the trek was..
nice lah. not bad.. i like the bridge part.
hahah...

not gg school tml...
i think i was creating an uncondusive envt for my classmates cause i kept kept kept blowing my nose.
hahah..
then during geog lect i sat all the way at the back..
when i blow my nose ppl at the front 3rd row all look at me lah.
too loud :)

7:52 PM